The Me that was

4 Years now it has been and i am warped in this zone, it was good, an achievement, thrilling but that was years ago and now its time for more but what? You see four years ago today i would have had an answer

I miss her, she was young, fearless and a dreamer, she was determined to make the world see things her way and soon they did, she had an amazing view of the world on a whole. Sometimes i sit and think if she were here today, how different things would be.

What happened? Where and when did i lose her? She pinched a bit of her dream and became consumed with everything else, doing this and that and now she is lost. Can i still find her?

So many questions and almost no answers, no one can answer these questions for me, i and i alone can answer them. Time to take my head out of the sand and find the me that was, whether it was the weather or people or situations that made me get this way, it's time to shake them off and break the shackles that bind me to this new physically grown shell of my old self.
Find the things that made me fearless, go back to the truth, to the things I was grounded in and then maybe I will find her and stop the search that has gone on for years now and finally bring her home to save me from this unchanging world, It's grey here..... the hues of grey in this world have blended perfectly for years and honestly they have become dull and boring........



Off on a quest for the me that was

 Time for excitement but first i must find her and then may be look forward to a brighter day.... There is still that nagging fear "what if i've got it wrong and no poem or song can put right what i've got wrong or make it feel like i belong?" Every step i take, could be my biggest mistake yet, it could bend or break every thing i am working to recover but that is the risk i am willing to take so I am off on a quest for the me that was..... Wish me luck!!!!